Spent

Sometimes I get frustrated with myself for signing up for too many projects, ministries, and events. I find myself wondering how I will get everything done, and why I always allow myself to get involved in so much. I have prioritized to the point that everything is on a list... somewhere... and I will get to it... eventually. So, I decide to back off, to take a breather from one thing- and God sends me another thing to do. It is then that I remember that this isn't 'just life'. It is one chance to get as much in as possible, experience as much as possible, and share Jesus as much as possible.

Don't get me wrong, I take time off when I need it to help me focus on God. But I thought about what the Bible says about idleness. We are told in Proverbs 31 that the Godly woman does not eat of the bread of idleness. In the garden of Gethsemane Jesus finds the disciples sleeping, and His frustration is apparent.

I want to live my life in such a way that in the end there is nothing left. I want to have a zero balance for things that I could have done for the kingdom's cause, I want to embrace every opportunity to give of my time, energy, and money until there is nothing left to give. Of course, choosing this lifestyle means that I will be relying on God more, but that is kind of the idea here..

I want to reach Heaven and be able to say, "Whew, I'm spent. There is nothing left of me, because Lord, I promised you my all and I held nothing back." What are you holding back?